Making a baby with love.

Being somewhat of a control freak each one of your lives were planned. Having a baby was a seriously planned adventure to us. There's a few specific events during that initial period of your life's that I dearly treasure, and so enjoyed.  It's moments and memories carved into my inner being.

I loved that moment, the second,  where your dad's and my hearts merged into one and we both agreed that we want a baby. Before that you was a idea, a maybe, a thought or a possibility. But at that moment you become a fact and a reality to us. And so it always started. There was a moment that we agreed our lives will be incomplete without you. All of a sudden there's life in the air around us. Excitement beyond words.

I loved monitoring, following and keeping tract of my menstrual cycle. I used online fertility calendars and used high-lighters and personal abbreviations on my personal notes to  determine exactly when I would be the most fertile. I loved waiting for the signs and counting down to the days we would conceive you.

 Lily and Lexi's fertility map notes

I love making love to make a baby. It's different from doing it for fun. It's passionate and exciting.  So much more power in it. Moments that pulled your dad's heart and mine even closer together. I recall those baby making sessions and treasure those memories above all the other times. Making love to make a baby is done with purpose, and nothing compares to that.

 Daddy getting out the shower after making Lexi. He looks happy hey !!

I love the horrid two-week-wait to see if we conceived or not. Each day hoping to feel a early symptom. Hoping to feel nausea, ridiculous as that may be. Every day felt like a year. 14 days when I couldn't focus on anything else but hoping to be pregnant. We were blessed wit a baby each time we tried to conceive. 

 Out of Ruby's journal as I keep track of every day from conception to a positive on test (14 days)

I loved all the home pregnancy tests I did. Being as anxious as I am I did many. I knew I did them to early but I just had to know. Oh and what a moment when I saw that positive. Total ecstasy. Joy beyond words. I kept a positive pregnancy test of each of you.

 Ruby's positive pregnancy test.

I loved announcing you were on your way. I sent a message to everybody I knew a day or two after I got a positive home pregnancy test.

    This was Ruby's announcement. The other two were sent via sms.

I loved keeping tract of your development from where the sperm connected with the egg,  forming a Zygote then a Morula then a Blastocyst. This is all before the baby has attached to my womb,still in the first week of pregnancy. I followed your development day by day for 280 days.

 Out of Lily's journal (21 days old)

I love choosing a name. Also a magical moment when we just KNEW !!!!! With Lily we had the name before we even tried to conceive. With Ruby I had the idea of using another L name but after you heard the name Ruby from a friend, Chantal, you wanted that name and woke me up at night with Ruby in my thoughts. It is so much fun deciding on a name. To be in the position where I had the power choose a name you would be called over you everyday for the rest of your life was so powerful. Each one of you got a name we thought about long and hard analyzing every part of the meaning. Lily of the valley, a flower describing Jesus who was pure and humble amongst many attributes. Lexi, female, shortened version of Alexander the great, meaning Defender of mankind. And Ruby, The ruby was one of the stones in the high priest's breastplate (Ex 28:17). I believe each one of your names were inspired and will be connected to your created purpose. 

  A piece of scrap paper I played around with when choosing Lexi's name.

I loved going for sonars that was done by such a special lady, Heidi whom became such a dear friend. The effort she put in so I could see my precious baby's faces. Truly a science miracle to take a  peep right into heaven. Oh my word ... unless you've experienced it, you will not know the thrill. 

 

This was 4D (video) of Ruby yawning 

I loved fixing up your room. Each had a special and unique theme. Lily was froggies. Lexi ladybirds and Ruby butterflies. Long story behind why ...

Lexi's room. Don't think she slept here for more than a few afternoon naps ;)

I loved going for a preggies photo shoot and getting cute pic's of my baby bump. 

Preggie shoot being preggies with Lily, Lexi and Ruby

I LOVED ABOVE ALL, GIVING BIRTH !!!!!

 Precious Ruby born into my arms with daddy and Lily by our side. It was past Lexi's bedtime.

 I loved announcing to the world that you were born. Each one of your birth announcements were sent the same day you were born.

This was Lexi's birth announcement

So many precious memories to the start of your lifes. You girls are my live !!!